The finished piece.

I finally finished this drawing! I’m pretty happy with how it turned out in the end. I really took my time with this one and I got to try out a lot of different techniques and tools that I’ve never used before. I apologize for the huge shadow at the top, the graphite is really reflective in some spots (especially the hair and beneath the chin) and it was practically impossible to find lighting in the house that wouldn’t bring out the shine.

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I randomly found the reference photo that I used for this on this website. It’s an absolutely stunning picture, which immediately made me want to draw it as best I could.

ope you all had a good weekend. xx

Some drawings, some ramblings.

Sunflowers for the friends by Claudio.Ar

It’s been almost a week since I started the morphine and I have to admit, it’s not working as well as I’d hoped. That being said it is an improvement from before, and it’s certainly making my nights a lot more bearable. Perhaps it’s a matter of proper dosing. The fact that I’ve been getting some sleep is a miracle in itself. Spending a day with pain is a lot more bearable if you’ve gotten a decent night’s sleep. I’m tolerating the morphine really well in regards to side effects. The ones I am experiencing are the same as with codeine, only slightly stronger. But, no nausea or vomiting which is what I was the most worried about, so yay! I have another doctor appointment Friday morning to discuss how the new medication is going.

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I’ve been doing some more drawing lately, which makes me happy. I had started drawing this eye but my experiment with colored pencils went very wrong and I ended up having to throw it away. Note to self: don’t do a lot of the work before you try out something new. Experiment first so that if you screw up you don’t throw away something you spent a long time working on. That should have been a no-brainer but alas, at least I learned my lesson!

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As for this drawing, it’s finally finished! I really like to have something like this to work on when I’m bored or fidgety. I pretty much always have one on the go. There’s not too much pressure not to screw it up because it was always meant as more of a doodle in the first place. Then I don’t have to avoid it when I’m not feeling good or lacking sleep for fear that I’m going to muck it up. Muck away!

I was in the midst of a Doctor Who marathon when I started this, that may explain the robotic eye appearance. You’ll undoubtedly notice the pen smears everywhere, I’m terrible for dragging my hand through the ink before it’s dry. I’ve looked in the mirror to find pen on my face many times this week and it always makes me chuckle.

Much love everyone, hope you’re having a great week! ♥ 

When she stood she stood tall.

I finally got some sleep last night after a long time without. My back is really hurting me yet again, I never even realized how much I avoid having to bend because of the pain now. For months I’ve also had this weird thing where if I bend my neck it hurts the very bottom of my spine too. At first it would come and go but now it’s constant. As you can imagine it makes drawing really hard sometimes. I have to watch how I position my head even more than before. Boo.

I’ve been listening to the song below consistently for months now and still haven’t gotten tired of it! I usually put it on when I’m in a solemn or sad mood. It’s beautiful.

0518031633 This is my old sketchbook that I use for doodling and practice. It’s looking kind of rough and I’m finally on the last couple of pages. I realized that I never post any of the pictures in it on here so since I haven’t been doing any new drawings (working on the children’s book instead) I think maybe I’ll start posting a few.

I take this book pretty much everywhere with me, just in case I get bored or need a distraction. I’m pretty used to people asking to look in it (I still have an invisible panic attack every time). Obviously I know there’s a chance that if someone sees me drawing in it they’ll get curious so if I was too worried about it  I would make sure not to take it out in front of people. I don’t put anything too personal in it, like the drawings I do when I’m moody or upset or in an insane amount of pain. Not that they’re horrifying or anything, but it’s a lot like letting some one read your diary, even if other people don’t realize it. I have a separate sketchbook that stays at home and I keep it to myself. That way I can vent my feelings without fear of having someone judge them.

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I think this drawing is from a few months back. As you’ve probably noticed I particularly like drawing people (eyes are my favorite, hair is clearly not). That’s not always what I draw, those are just the drawings I prefer to share.

:)

American Horror Story


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This is an old drawing I just dug up but never quite got around to finishing (one of many). It’s Tate Langdon aka Rubberman from American Horror Story season 1 (played by Evan Peters).