It’s been almost a week since I started the morphine and I have to admit, it’s not working as well as I’d hoped. That being said it is an improvement from before, and it’s certainly making my nights a lot more bearable. Perhaps it’s a matter of proper dosing. The fact that I’ve been getting some sleep is a miracle in itself. Spending a day with pain is a lot more bearable if you’ve gotten a decent night’s sleep. I’m tolerating the morphine really well in regards to side effects. The ones I am experiencing are the same as with codeine, only slightly stronger. But, no nausea or vomiting which is what I was the most worried about, so yay! I have another doctor appointment Friday morning to discuss how the new medication is going.
I’ve been doing some more drawing lately, which makes me happy. I had started drawing this eye but my experiment with colored pencils went very wrong and I ended up having to throw it away. Note to self: don’t do a lot of the work before you try out something new. Experiment first so that if you screw up you don’t throw away something you spent a long time working on. That should have been a no-brainer but alas, at least I learned my lesson!
As for this drawing, it’s finally finished! I really like to have something like this to work on when I’m bored or fidgety. I pretty much always have one on the go. There’s not too much pressure not to screw it up because it was always meant as more of a doodle in the first place. Then I don’t have to avoid it when I’m not feeling good or lacking sleep for fear that I’m going to muck it up. Muck away!
I was in the midst of a Doctor Who marathon when I started this, that may explain the robotic eye appearance. You’ll undoubtedly notice the pen smears everywhere, I’m terrible for dragging my hand through the ink before it’s dry. I’ve looked in the mirror to find pen on my face many times this week and it always makes me chuckle.
Much love everyone, hope you’re having a great week! ♥
Bangkok Ice Age by Mike Behnken
Hey everyone! Nothing exciting to report today. I haven’t been getting much sleep lately so my brain’s not too on point. Hopefully today I’ll get some more drawing done than I have been. I’m making some progress with this one, slow but sure. I’ve been trying out some new techniques, one of which is using some old unloved paintbrushes for the blending, in combination with the shading stumps and q-tips. It seems to work really well!
I hope you’re all having a good day. The sun is finally shining here, it looks beautiful on top of the golden leaves. It makes me wish I knew how to paint!
Hey everyone, happy Tuesday! Today’s been another slow day, I can’t seem to wake up enough to be good for much. I’m hoping to spend the rest of today doing some drawing. My fingers have been giving me trouble so I’ve been trying not to strain them too much (says the girl as she types). Anyways, below is a picture of what I’m working on right now. I’m really excited about this one!
I’m too lazy to get my camera out so I just took that picture on my cell phone for now. I’ll take a better quality one when it’s all done. :)
I want to apologize for the changes to the blog, I’m still working on the appearance of things and trying to find the right fit. So, it might change yet again before I’m finally satisfied but bear with me!
Usually I stick to drawing portraits (they’re my favorite) but this time I wanted to do something a little different. The idea for this came from some song lyrics that I really liked (usually that’s how it starts!) and the rest of the picture just sort of evolved around it.
The lyrics are from an old Waylon Jennings song (not the one below) called “If You See Me Getting Smaller”. They read as:
If you see me gettin’ smaller,
I’m leavin’, don’t be grieving
Just got to get away from here.
If you see me gettin’ smaller,
Don’t worry, I’m in no hurry.
I’ve got the right to disappear.
The truth is that I never shook my shadow
Every day it’s trying to trick me into doing battle
Calling out “faker”, only get me rattled
Want to pull me back behind the fence with the cattle.
– Truth by Alexander
I realize why I’ve been running for so long,
Long passed my breathless lungs,
Miles further than my broken limbs would carry me.
I can’t stop, don’t stop, just carry on.
Alive, untouchable, invincible.
My beating heart and heavy breath, alone in the great wide world.
With blistered heals, and splintered shins.
The sun’s farewell on my shoulders,
The wild, open road at my feet.
I think that I did this drawing a couple of years ago, when I first stumbled onto the awesomeness that is the talented Laura Marling. A few years later and I’m still blown away by this girl’s songwriting skills as well as her ability to sound just as good – if not better – live than otherwise.
Do have a listen:
I finally got some sleep last night after a long time without. My back is really hurting me yet again, I never even realized how much I avoid having to bend because of the pain now. For months I’ve also had this weird thing where if I bend my neck it hurts the very bottom of my spine too. At first it would come and go but now it’s constant. As you can imagine it makes drawing really hard sometimes. I have to watch how I position my head even more than before. Boo.
I’ve been listening to the song below consistently for months now and still haven’t gotten tired of it! I usually put it on when I’m in a solemn or sad mood. It’s beautiful.
This is my old sketchbook that I use for doodling and practice. It’s looking kind of rough and I’m finally on the last couple of pages. I realized that I never post any of the pictures in it on here so since I haven’t been doing any new drawings (working on the children’s book instead) I think maybe I’ll start posting a few.
I take this book pretty much everywhere with me, just in case I get bored or need a distraction. I’m pretty used to people asking to look in it (I still have an invisible panic attack every time). Obviously I know there’s a chance that if someone sees me drawing in it they’ll get curious so if I was too worried about it I would make sure not to take it out in front of people. I don’t put anything too personal in it, like the drawings I do when I’m moody or upset or in an insane amount of pain. Not that they’re horrifying or anything, but it’s a lot like letting some one read your diary, even if other people don’t realize it. I have a separate sketchbook that stays at home and I keep it to myself. That way I can vent my feelings without fear of having someone judge them.
I think this drawing is from a few months back. As you’ve probably noticed I particularly like drawing people (eyes are my favorite, hair is clearly not). That’s not always what I draw, those are just the drawings I prefer to share.
I’ve been suffering from insomnia like none other – I can’t even remember the last time I actually really slept. So, here I am, up in the middle of the night with a horribly painful subluxated rib and no ability to escape from it with sleep. Instead I’ve been drawing my little heart out whenever I can and listening to music. I can’t even believe I’m typing this but; it’s not so bad.
I seen this video and had to share it with you because it’s awesome!