Things change today, one way or another. I’m starting this post before my doctor appointment, I’ll post again afterward so I can blog about how it went.
I’m not as gloomy about the thought of upping my medication as I have been. I guess the pain is just too much now that it makes me feel option-less. Just getting through the day lately has been an enormous challenge and it’s exhausting. I wake up in the morning after another largely sleepless night and feel utterly melancholy at the thought of doing it all over again.
I’ve been spending most of my days this week sitting, hunched over forwards, because it’s the only way I can lessen the pain in my back. Of course it’s uncomfortable in a dozen other places but it’s the best I can do right now. I can’t stand very long at all before the pain is nearing unmanageable.
Thanks again for all of your support! It really does mean the world to me. I’m hoping things turn around soon, I’m tired of the negative posts. I’d like to have something happy or uplifting to say! Hopefully soon, yeah? :)
Note: I know I just posted this song (with it’s official video) but afterwards I found this amazing animated version by an incredible artist named Ryan Woodward. I love it!!