A few days ago we received the medical records/results of my recent specialist appointments and tests in Vancouver – they weren’t exactly what I had hoped.
The X-ray showing my mid and upper spine shows vertebrae wedging (compression of the vertabrae caused by degeneration) along with Spondylosis (degenerative osteoarthritis of the joints between the centre of the spinal vertebrae and/or neural foraminae). This was a bit hard to digest because we knew that my lower spine had some degenerative problems (large synovial cyst, uncommon in those under 65, very rare in those under 40) but thought that was the extent of my spinal problems. I wasn’t expecting to hear that my mid spine looks like that of a middle aged person already too. My lower back’s been hurting me more than anything these past few months and it’s been continually getting worse. It hurts up higher too but not very much, hopefully it’ll stay that way for a long time yet.
I was more taken aback by what they found in my lungs. The bases of both of my lungs have atelectasis which is: the incomplete expansion or collapse of parts of or a whole lung. Collapsed lungs and pneumothorax are known to be more common in tissue disorders than in the general population, but I had no idea that there was anything wrong with mine.
Overall I’m oddly calm about the whole business. I took in the results, took some deep breaths and accepted it. It’s kind of sad to say but this is what waits for me. My condition is degenerative and it’ll only deteriorate over time. More and more things will start to show up on tests, more joints will dislocate, I’ll be in more pain. I know this and for the most part I’ve made peace with it. I have my moments of despair, but this is the way that things are and I have to learn to find happiness despite it.