A quick update on pain and my doctor appointment.

It’s been a little while since my last post and I thought that I should update. Thank you all so much for the kind words and support. I know that I haven’t responded to any of the comments and/or emails but know that I have read them all multiple times and they mean so much to me. The love and compassion gives me strength when I need it the most.

I got in to see the doctor the same day that I last wrote. The appointment was brief because she was fitting me in but it was enough time for her to get the gist of just how badly I’m doing pain-wise and how painful the rib subluxation is. Actually, I think she was a bit startled by the state that I was in. I hadn’t slept yet so I was in zombie mode, I couldn’t put my shoes on without my mom’s help and I was on the verge of tears whenever I tried to explain how hard things have been lately. She seemed to grasp my situation and desperation fairly quickly. She ended up giving me a prescription for Hydromorph Contin which is just time release Dilaudid (the pain killer that I used to take every once in a while when my pain level was especially high), to take twice a day. I’m on a much higher dose of that then I want to be and it’s been stressing me out but even with that I’m still having a really hard time with the pain. If I hadn’t been side tracked I would’ve insisted on a different medication because I can’t take this one without taking gravol first. If I don’t then the nausea gets bad enough that I just end up throwing the medication back up. It seems wrong to put so many pills in my body everyday and the gravol in combination with my beta blocker and pain medication make me unbearably tired. That would be fine – beneficial even – except that it hurts my back to lay down for very long at a time.

I’ve been in a bit of a better mood than before. I enjoyed my Thanksgiving even though it was a little overwhelming and I was too sick to eat much. I got to meet my cousin’s 5 week old baby girl for the first time (I love babies) and see some family that I haven’t seen for a long time. I was thinking about what I was thankful for on Thanksgiving day and the first thing that came to my mind was my mom, of course. She’s been so amazing and supportive the past couple of weeks. She’s the only thing that’s kept me holding on and I know that I’m unbelievably lucky to have her. I’m also very thankful to have the opportunity to write out everything that I feel – good and bad – here on my blog and for all of you and your kind words.

Anyways, I’m still trucking along as best as I can. I haven’t slept yet so I hope to write a little more later today once I have.

8 thoughts on “A quick update on pain and my doctor appointment.

  1. I’m right there with you on feeling guilty about pumping my body so full of medication. I also start to wonder if it isn’t doing more harm than good. But I’m still in that dreadful “well, just keep waiting and see….” period of illness. I don’t think it’d be so hard if I wasn’t also falling so behind in school! Anyway, what I love most about your blog is how relatable it is. Like you said, you cover the good and the bad, the uncertainties and guilt, the accomplishment and hope. It’s very real, and it makes me feel not alone. I hope that when I share this kind of stuff, you feel less alone too. I also hope it’s not TMI! :)

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  2. So glad to hear from you. I am sorry things are so bad for you. Maybe when you are feeling a bit better you should see this doctor. She sounds sympathetic and may be able to come up with a better solution to your pain control. Hang in there brave Katie!

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