Three Times, Not So Charming

I know it’s been a few days but I figure I should give you the final update on my drop and how it works. It does get rid of my double vision, but there’s a catch (isn’t there always?). The catch being that instead of one drop lasting 24 hours on me it lasts about 5. So in order to keep my pupil small and therefore keep my double vision at bay I would need to take the drop 3 times a day. They need to be taken at least 8 hours apart so there’s the 3 hours of double vision in between, and then there’s the hour of bad vision and intense eye aching after I use the drop. Simply said, no thank you. The costs are no longer worth the reward. Yeah, the double vision sucks and I would love it if it were gone, but now the pain (literally and figuratively) of doing the drop has become more of an irritation than the double vision itself. It’s nice to have the option in a situation to take the drop, like, if I needed to drive somewhere at night, but I definitely won’t be using it 3 times a day everyday. Driving a night is still a little iffy anyways because I still get major halos and glare from street and head lights

There is still the option of surgery. Which was explained to me like this: in order to surgically keep the pupil small they literally damage the nerves that allow it to dilate. They said it’s fairly straight forward and not too risky. Like I said, that’s an option. But for some reason my gut instinct is telling me that the surgery would be a bad idea, that it would be a mistake. So, because the double vision isn’t life threatening or particularly debilitating I’m going to trust my instinct and leave it for now. I don’t want to do something irreversible that I might one day regret unless it’s necessary. Plus I think my eyes have been messed with enough for a few lifetimes years and the thought of purposefully damaging nerves in my eye doesn’t sound like something to take lightly, at least to me anyway.

I’m at a place now where I am more at peace with my vision. It was hard to accept for a while that this was what it would be like from now on, but I’ve gotten used to it. It serves it’s purpose and I am lucky for that. I can see, maybe not like I used to but at least I can and that’s what’s important. There’s no point dwelling on the negative. For all I know one day there’ll be other options and they’ll be as good as new.

{I am not a doctor and the medical definitions and descriptions featured in this blog post do not and should not replace those of a medical professional. They are merely there to help give an idea of my situation and experiences. If you are in need of medical advice see your doctor.}

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